inferno
04-12-2006, 09:13 AM
Um just sitting here reading the rantings of some highly happy and spiritually great pple here at tys, and i cant get over the great way that Raton can heal spirituallyand connect as earthly to our great world.
I am at this place in my life where i am standing at the edge, looking at a great empty void, i dont know wether to look up to the heavens or down to the earth and the way that life gives and takes away.
I have been married 12 yrs and it is good, oh yes we have fights and we squabble but we love and we feel the hurt that we do and we concile our differences so we can love again.
Years ago i came down with my first case of gout: Yeh it was bad and it hurt like hell but it only lasted a couple of days...;)
Then i got stones....not stoned lol but them damn kidney things:eek:
Ever had your you know whats pushed up till it feels like they are sitting behind your navel??? Well i got that for a couple of days..
I had a bit of hardship but i got through it.
I can live with that i thought.. as the doc says take the meds and you might only get one or the other once a year or so:o
I now have cum to a point that the stones dont really hurt anymore :eek: i only get the small ones like rocksalt every month or two.
But the gout is rediculus and i am having trouble even looking at what next month will bring as soon as i get a sore toe or ankle or whatever i am ready to give up and say f#$% it!!!
My missus knows what the pain does to me but i think she is starting to get weary of me not being able to do the things i should do. I think weird things sometimes, not stupid thoughts but just ways to make it easier on her and my son.
I think this guy with the post under me is is right in thinking that the world can make a difference in the way i feel, not so much his strategy but his outlook on life.
By the world i mean the very sences that touch us 24 hrs a day, the sleep, the dreams, the first waking to hear my budgies going nuts because they want their sheet taken off to say hello to the day, my first waking moment was of a big moth that had landed on my water glass right next to my head this morning it was plain and grey but it was there and it wasn't troubled.;)
My best part of the day is seeing my 9yr old boy comming in to say hello and i love you then riding his bike to school like the total innocent that he is(he thinks he is very cool now that he is allowed to ride to school).
I wish i had his cares and troubles...
I think in a very big way this is the therapy that i have needed as i sit here and think about all the great things that start my day. Yes when i started this topic i was down but even thinking about the positives makes my outlook brighter, why should i worry about the rest of my life when i know that tomorrow hopefully will be a great start like today.... after that who cares.
inferno:cool:
I am at this place in my life where i am standing at the edge, looking at a great empty void, i dont know wether to look up to the heavens or down to the earth and the way that life gives and takes away.
I have been married 12 yrs and it is good, oh yes we have fights and we squabble but we love and we feel the hurt that we do and we concile our differences so we can love again.
Years ago i came down with my first case of gout: Yeh it was bad and it hurt like hell but it only lasted a couple of days...;)
Then i got stones....not stoned lol but them damn kidney things:eek:
Ever had your you know whats pushed up till it feels like they are sitting behind your navel??? Well i got that for a couple of days..
I had a bit of hardship but i got through it.
I can live with that i thought.. as the doc says take the meds and you might only get one or the other once a year or so:o
I now have cum to a point that the stones dont really hurt anymore :eek: i only get the small ones like rocksalt every month or two.
But the gout is rediculus and i am having trouble even looking at what next month will bring as soon as i get a sore toe or ankle or whatever i am ready to give up and say f#$% it!!!
My missus knows what the pain does to me but i think she is starting to get weary of me not being able to do the things i should do. I think weird things sometimes, not stupid thoughts but just ways to make it easier on her and my son.
I think this guy with the post under me is is right in thinking that the world can make a difference in the way i feel, not so much his strategy but his outlook on life.
By the world i mean the very sences that touch us 24 hrs a day, the sleep, the dreams, the first waking to hear my budgies going nuts because they want their sheet taken off to say hello to the day, my first waking moment was of a big moth that had landed on my water glass right next to my head this morning it was plain and grey but it was there and it wasn't troubled.;)
My best part of the day is seeing my 9yr old boy comming in to say hello and i love you then riding his bike to school like the total innocent that he is(he thinks he is very cool now that he is allowed to ride to school).
I wish i had his cares and troubles...
I think in a very big way this is the therapy that i have needed as i sit here and think about all the great things that start my day. Yes when i started this topic i was down but even thinking about the positives makes my outlook brighter, why should i worry about the rest of my life when i know that tomorrow hopefully will be a great start like today.... after that who cares.
inferno:cool: