bad news!!!!

[titoknk]

Im very delicated with my disease,this started to get out of control here, my counts are going down after they where getting up, im in deep pain and im about to give up guys tomorrow im sign the responsability as a patient to leave hospital and decided to die in peace at home till god want. Im in deep stress dissapointed and pretty desilucionated. Im out of Meds and im going crazy with this CHEMO. pray for me guys :confused: :mad: :(

[swampy]

Titoknk Im so sorry to hear it Bro I will be praying you go home and get better

[athena]

titoknk, i am so sorry to hear that you are feeling so awful. my prayers are with you. i hope that you find some meds soon to help ease your pain.

[Unicorn]

Healing Hugs Tito...take it one day at a time...Hugs Uni ;)

[bluefly]

Hey Tito, I don't know you, but it breaks my heart to hear you're feeling so bad! If I had any meds to share with you, they would already be on the way to you.Hang in there, bro, something will come along to help you. Peace brother.

[micah]

Sorry to hear things are going so wrong Tito. Sending healing prayers your way brother......micah
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[Green Medicine]

Hey friend,

I'm sorry that life is so hard right now.

But tomorrow just might be better! Hang on for one more day with the treatment..hey you can always go home from the hospital whenever you want...but your options get really narrow if you go home and curl up in bed.

I KNOW YOU Tito (Buck3)! And you aren't one to give up easy.

I'm sure that EVERYTHING SUCKS RIGHT NOW, but that all can change tomorrow! You might just "miss your miracle" if you give in to the overwhelming feelings....

If you wrote to share your pain and despair with us, the you haven't given up at all! :)

Sounds like you are reaching out and being counted as a living warm person who is going thru hell right now. So hug your family real tight and
don't be afraid to post and PM all you want!

It's YOUR time to lean on us. Go ahead I dare you!
I don't think anyone here is going to piss in your lemonade :)

Trust can be friggin hard when you're suffering...but trust in something....anything for today.

"One day at a time" isn't just for alcoholics anymore!

Take Care of yourself and don't forget all the good times we had in San Dimas! LOL

Your Friend, Green Medicine (Zero)

[1JoeSky_IVXX]

Our Prayers and thoughts are with you! Feel the healing of love directed your way.

[coco_artist]

Tito
Don't give up! I almost didn't have my surgery because of feeling that way and here I am over two years later still alive. If I hadn't of had it, I wouldn't be here to brighten up your day! :D (attempt at humor) Seriously, sometimes it still seems like such an uphill battle. I know what it is like to wake up in the morning and wonder if you still want to be here. Please take your time with such a major decision. If you are depressed you can ask for help. Being so sick, it is tempting to pack it in, but DON'T DO IT, you don't know what it is you might miss out on that could be really good just right around the corner. You know how things can change at a moment's notice.
Anytime you want to talk just let me know. I know what it is to live with a life threatening illness.
Michelle

[anonymous]

tito my family and i are sending you warm blessing wishing you the best in your situation keep up the fight dont give in you are so much stronger ;)

[slater]

wow i am floored tito. i dunno what to say.only you know what is best.i lost a good friend last year. please get some meds...i am sure that they will supply you with some narcs to dull your senses....and get some mmj, sit back and smoke some marijuana and play elvis presely's "my way".

i hope you find my post and maybe leave us with some of your favoritre memories. you will always be remembered....peace slater

[nancerella]

My thoughts and prayers go out to you tito.
Don't give up, EVER!

[Lucy]

tito sending positive healing energy your way...hoping your spirit is lifted soon to give you the strength to deal with the physical.

[Ayahuasca]

Im sorry about your bad news,
dont give up tito, Hope is the keyword

my prayers and thoughts are with you
best wishes titoknk

bruno

[Buffalo Bill]

Tito, don't give up! Don't ever give up!!!! Please always remember that tomorrow is a new day! You are in my prayers! Please keep us up as to how things are going with you, because we DO care! Take care and be well....

[Grasshopper]

Hang in there tito. Sorry to hear how bad u feel, sending good vibes. Try to get your hands on some meds.

Grasshopper

[BigDaddyc9]

Don't give up! Its gotta be hard but dont give up-sending healing prayers and karma your way-Peace BigD

[sunshine]

Tito, just take one day at a time hun, your in my prayers and thoughts

Sunshine

[Cadillac]

I am so sorry to hear about your pain and illness. I know pain is undescribable to most people. I am praying for you bro. We care about you and love you. You are part of our TY family. I hope someone near you can help you with some meds. Cadillac

[titoknk]

After thinkin hard and having a conversation with my wife i decided to stay in the hospital i have 40.7 of fever while typing this lots of pain due to the chemo i received (oncobin)Prednisone today and plus inmsonio hard to beat ehhh... I cant move my left leg well and im starting to have circulation problems specially on the hands. This sucks. count dropped to 715,000 white blood cells. platelets are on 33k everything is down but im gonna fight to the END thanks for praying for me my friends, i also love ya all. Here are some pics i took today... take care and peace n health!!!


:cool: :D :p

[Duck]

Walking along a little path,
I find a footprint on the moss,
A white cloud low on the quiet lake,
Grasses that sweeten an open door,
A pine greener with the rain,
A brook tumbling from a mountain source,
And, mingling with Truth among flowers,
I have forgotten what to say.


Bless you Titoknk
dd

[Amanita]

Tito, remember this:
The ultimate measure is not where you stand
im moments of comfort, but where you stand
at times of challenge and controversy.

PM me and I might be able to help you out with your med problem.

[lesliechet]

hang in there tito , god will save his children.may you have salvation sent your way.peace and long life. :D

[coco_artist]

Alright! Glad you decided to hang in there. The prednisone should make you feel a whole lot better! Still lots of life left to live....so live it.....God has blessed you with more time, it's a gift you must accept.....there is a reason....haven't really figured out what mine is yet,(suspect it is my grandson) but you obviously have a loving wife to live for.....so count your blessings! Excuse me why I hug Boswell....... :D

[titoknk]

Well todays a new day very sunny too bad i cant go out of the room but the view i had on let me take a bit the sun , damn im freezing here, today i woke up with better attitude HEY LIFE IS GOOD :) :D , anyway thanks all for your support Zero thanks for your kind of words bro, be well :) . today i walking better my legs hurting less im taking morphine in pills for the bone pain. next week i have spinal chemo, they make a punction on the spinal cords and injects chemo meds to the spinal , painfull :( . then shes going to make a bone marrow Geez im fu%^&*d up LOL. But im happy today. Thanks coco. Im gonna try to get some rest. im feeling sleepy with the morphine :mad:
peace all . . .
tito :eek:

[nancerella]

Rest well Tito