RANT WARNING! IM so mad!

[purplemyst]

OK folks..this is a major rant.. since i couldnt find a rant forum I needed to do this here. I apologize in advance..

I am so freaking sick and tired of being sick and tired.. the fibro has me aching from head to foot.. ive had a stinking headache for a flippen month off and on. My back feels like its been kicked.. by an 18 wheeler. I havent been able to shower in a week for fear of falling on my ass in the shower because my balance has been so off.

THE FREAKING CAR took all of our electric bill money so we are behind on that.. and we were so hoping to finally get that paid off so we could get lights to grow my medicine.. now we have to wait for a few more MONTHS at least before we can get even one light to grow my medicine.

Im so sick of having to take multiple naps during the day just to survive the day. and then I cant sleep at night.. ive been awake the entire night a minimum of 4 nights in the past week.

just sitting here is making my back scream with pain and nothing i take.. MJ, vicoden es, baclofen, ibuprofen is helping. I hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this i hate this...

did i mention I HATE THIS??????

thank you for listening to my rant.. we will now return you to your regularly scheduled programming.

Myst

[WeldFlash420]

OH man, PMyst, this is terrible as I know exactly how you feel. Trying to get dug out of a never-ending pit. And always being in pain sucks, no two ways about it. So pulling out the big guns and gonna send every bit of todays healin vibes right over to ya. I wish I could wave the hand and make ya feel better, but you'd have a better chance of seeing God descend from the Heavens and fire one up with ya. Keep yer chin up, as one day this too will all pass. Be well and if ya wanna yell and scream feel free to drop me a line....

[zach]

PMyst please let me refer to my signature quote its better nowe i bet lol

[BigDaddyc9]

Purplemyst-I hear you on the fibro part-Im in agony with no sleep too.Im on duragesics and it wont touch my pain.I just wanted you to know that you are not alone.I pray good things go your way soon.Peace and health to you BigD

[Lucy]

((((pm)))) fibro sucks the big one!!

[bigman]

your in my family's prayers, stay tough boss

[Freja]

nice soft gentle ones which only heal and never hurt... sorry your in such pain... wish I could take some of it away for you.... you do so much for everyone here... you have a wonderfully generous spirit.... try to keep faith.... and remember.... breath....

[sunshine]

well hun your in my thoughts and prayers, things will come together, I've gone through the same thing for several years but things are finally looking up, you will too

Sunshine

[purplemyst]

Thank you all for responding. Im really depressed right now.. but im working on it.. and of course when you are depressed you hurt more.. then because you hurt more you get more depressed.. a vicious circle as one of my docs say.

Im still in a lot of pain.. but i have brrn taking more pain meds instead of just trying to "tough it out". I know better than to not take my meds.. but im just so tired of pills, joints and bongs...(mostly the pills..LOL)

Myst

[swampy]

Hope you feel better soon and your load is lightened Purplemyst, can you palnt a couple outside? Sunshine (like a smile) is free :)

[purplemyst]

sorry swampy.... only option i have is indoor grow... I live in an apt. and even if the property management agrees with me that its medicine.. the complex manager is somewhat of a witch.;.(literally and figurtivly) who would do what she could to get me busted if i was growing outside.. must protect the children you know... instead of teaching them to leave peoples belongings alone.. but thats another rant for another day.

so.. as i said.. my only option is indoor.. it will happen.. someday....... i hope.

myst

[lesliechet]

so sorry to hear of your pain purplemyst, hope that you are feeling better after you take your meds . I'll be sending my prayers your way , may my signature help you feel better. :)

[Buffalo Bill]

Thank goodness tomorrow is a fresh day! Take care and be well...

[Green Medicine]

I hope this will pass..soon. Hang in there purplemyst.

[CrisOrton]

Sending good vibes your way! Hope you can feel better soon!

[COLOR=SlateGray]Cris