Beat down, F@#&ed up and Back on the S#%t.

[Frankie]

Well Im back.
On the evening of 1/23/06 While trying to make a med purchase I was beaten by two men and robbed of over $1100.00 US. They pulverized my right kneecap, Broke my right cheekbone and gave me a concussion that blackened both my eyes.
I was in the hospital eight days and am now all fucked up on OC once again. I feel like such a total loser. I swore to myself that I would die before I let myself get hooked again. But here I set waiting for the time to pass so I can take a pill and really WANTING that damn thing. I know this is really over dramatic but My heart is breaking over this. I just want to die and have the pain go away, both my worthless shell and my screwed up head.

Sorry to whine but damn....

I just thank god for my wife she is so good and deserves so much more than the broke down junkie she wound up with.

[Happyplant]

Dude sorry to hear, Sounds pretty bad. Did you know these guys or what? Everything will be o.k. just take it easy and get better. We are all here for you.

Happyplant

[slater]

hello frankie, i was just thinking about you today. when you first joined you were posting like mad in the shroom thread and havent seen that thread in a while. i even forgot your user name until i seen this post and it all came back to me. so sorry to hear about the beating you took. sounds like they got you good. do you know who did this to you? most people dont deserve a beating like that unless they ask for it. i was robbed recently and am glad that it was unconfrontational reading your post. being a junky is tough to go thru...been there and done that....and my girl is in the process of getting cleaned up as well. i would ask the dr's for some methadone...that stuff seems to help kick opiates....jsut use for a short period of time and lower the doses as fast as you can as it is addicting in itself.
you are not worthless, quite the contrary bro. you are filled with a wealth of information and i would love to learn from you. you can get better but its not going to happen over night and it doesnt end when you stop taking opiates....you need clean time under your belt before you start feeling normal again. i am here if you wan t to chat in private...pm me or what ever...i know what you are going thru....like i said i been there

[Frankie]

Allrighty then... The story goes like this. My bro Q is my usual "Guy" well his "Guy" went and got himself busted on I-80 with a load of Meth.

Good ridance to bad rubbish was my thought but it did create a problem. Well another of Q's people had met this Mexican national who seemed to be a nice guy, real friendly, and had some really nice Sativa. But he only had it an OZ at a time. I asked if there might be a chance to pick up a little extra so I didnt have to shop as often.
He was agreeable but because of the amount he had to have the cash upfront but said I could come with him to get it.

We went to a trailer park in a nearby town and went to a trailer when we went in I knew there was something wrong because there was nothing there but another Mexican national with a bat. They asked for my money I told them to kiss my ass and the guy with the bat smashed my kneecap. When I fell I hit my face on the step leading into the dining area. I tried to get up and the lights went out.

I woke up in the hospital and when I could pay attention they told me that the landlord of that trailer had walked over to see why the lights were on and chased off the two guys who were beating me. He was even able to identify the guys as they had rented the trailer and been evicted for nonpayment.

Cops were cops and tried to find a way to bust me for being beaten and robbed. The ER doc even hid my pipe from the cops and returned it to me later. They did say that in all probibillity the guys are already back in Mexico.

Oh BTW I have been off the OC for 3 days now and I hurt like a mother but its a good pain. As the SEAL's say "Pain is the weakness coming out." When the pain of my addiction is gone I will be able to treat the pain in my body the right way. I just wish I wasnt so FOND of narcotics.

I will have some new Mushroom logs to share as soon as I can sit long enough to put them together.