This about medications and psychiarty
I can tell you that when you clear up your mind things become more clearer than ever . Lets take the psych. test SSI wanted to give me in my 9 year case that i won when my lawyer quit two weeks before second hearing threatining me i could not win without his shrink dr. and 3k for him . "Shill ' if you will . I called him on it too . He quit so fast wasnt funny when i spilled the beans on him in front of the whole office . My wife though he was going to call the cops . He shoudlnt have told me i have problems while looking over his glasses at me . lol. I stood up and demanded justice , not a shill dr. Hum , I forget what its called. ah , an appeal if you will . So ' I went with my wife because she fills papers out for me because of my hands and " swift thinking " . NOT . so anyway , we are in the ssi drs office and he hands me the paper i have filled out so many times before with labour and industries and such . Only this time its 9 years later and things are so different . No more do i whine about not going to family dinners or leaving house to go on shpooing spree i dont need anyway . but what i found when i took the test this time is it was caging toward depression and i caught them on it . I look at my wife on the multipul part question and my answer wasnt there . WTH ? So i had her put the test down till i speak with the dr about this little anomolly . I looked him in the eye and ask him ,"where is my answer " Then i told him his test was caging and i have no reason any longer to be depressed then asked him , Wheres the love ? litterally ! Bammo , Hows that song go ,"gimmi two fingers , give me two fingers for the door " oh steps , im sorry . so anyway , he told me i couldnt take the test . . I told him i need it and am here now just for you little buddy . I told him this is on you , i am here , ready to test !
Anyway , thats how i got out of testing . called them on caging . And about my horrible super lawyer Bill Hockburg of edmonds washington . Hes turned beggar . How dumb could one be to work a case for nine years and quit in such fashion .Id already paid for his filling fees and such by the way .
He said i would loose and that i didnt qualify for ssi disability . And yet After i filled my evidence the judge was so pleased with me i got my disability and 9 years back pay after the hearing . Heck , i even got thrown out of one ssi office visit because a nurse rathet doesnt know how to handle sick people. This isnt a race ! Jeeze. Hey , what kind of lawyer works weekends for SSI ? Not a very good one !
Now ' tell me does this make sence to you . He was my labor and industriy lawyer and has a copy of my award letter by the goverment stating im fully pentioned permnamently. one form baby is all it took . When i got my records with a week to spare i went through the mass and it wasnt there . Bammo baby . We got a problem houston . Then it became perfectly clear why he gave me a 3 percent break because my fund is so big with L&I . Normally they take 15 pecent here . And i owed him almost 50k on that alone and paid in full , which he didnt like either . Im not his sugar daddy . Go make a living supa dupa "what " !
Drs i meet sure dont like when you do right either . I couldnt renew my mmj stuff with my normal dr. he trurned christian and digs on big pharma now . He told me i was going to die several times and when i show up with my wife several years later for diabetic shoes he throws me out wiht my wife saying the shoes cost to much for me . Was it becasue i was so happy i ran up to him jumping up and down because im reverseing the impossible ? He quit me too . He had too , Theres a little thing called murder ! I dint even have time to tell him blood is always in ym ear and urine .No time . he kicked us out litterally . My wife wrote letter to the board on that .
One more thing , if you want to quit smoking put the damn things down . Dont talk yourself into having withdrawel symptoms . Me and my wife quit , and i smoked 4 packs a day all day everyday . 40 years .No work since 97 . Ten cartoon a month . Lots a smoking .I never had to break for anyone or anything . Except newborns and drs apts . . Neither of us went through craving , shaking , i already have resting tremors but you cant see them inless im excited. It was so easy when you know what they do to you . Dont be Bernays Bitch ! I cant believe its already been over a year .. It was so easy for us i dont remember quitting . lol. Did grab for the ashtray just a couple times out of habit . Thats all !!!!! Well , theres my little diatribe for today . Enjoy.or not ! And i dont smoke cannabis to compensate either ! I mean damn , if you can work an 18-21 hour day or visit relatives without tremors . no problem .... I know the power of the mind , ive almost had to pull of the freeway because of anxiety rushing just because i was going to do something i normally dont . play onstage in front of people . Thats is so not me .
I will close remembering all the celexa and stuff i took and all the suicidal thoughts i had on that big pharma crap and all the people i soured because it wasnt me talking . it was pain talking . Paliative care 101